Friday 13 August 2010

Corset fetish

Goddess had me serving as her maid again today. I am getting used to it (and enjoy it very much) and I think I look quite good dressed in my maid's outfit. I served her champers and lunch and then she had to go back to work, but not before she gave me some of her golden nectar to drink. A very pleasant diversion in the middle of the day.
The other day I mentioned to her that I'd had bad indigestion at night and she asked jokingly if it was because I was wearing a corset. It wasn't but I have to admit that the idea of being ordered to wear a tight corset overnight (or any other time) appealed to me. I mentioned it in an email I sent her last night and she told me to wear one for the night. I did as I was told (as always) and the tight fit was quite a turn on. I could definitely get used to it and I hope that Goddess will make this a regular occurrence. The odd thing is that I wouldn't think of wearing it unless I was instructed to do so.
Goddess hasn't stayed at my new house since I moved in three months ago, the main reason being that she has children and doesn't want to leave them alone. She's suggested that the kids might enjoy sleeping in a tent in the garden while she stays at my place. I hope it happens. It would be so good to spend a night with her, even if I was in bondage - or should I say especially if I was in bondage! She hasn't said yet if she wants to rent a dungeon for a few hours, but I'm also hoping she will. I enjoy being with her so much and, as I may have mentioned, I worship her.
Goddess may disagree, but I feel that I am really reaching a state of total submission to her. I'm not just obeying her but trying to think ahead about what she needs or may want. I continue to look forward to a happy future - and I am enjoying a happy now!

Thursday 5 August 2010

A tough life, but I am devoted to Goddess

After serving as Goddess's maid a couple of weeks ago she instructed me to dress in my maid's outfit again later in the week. I dressed carefully (I thought I looked pretty good actually!) and prepared everything for her. I served some champagne and food and looked forward to an exciting evening. But unfortunately she was upset with me over something I had failed to do earlier and left after an hour or so. The week I had been looking forward to turned out to be a disappointment and Goddess said I had ruined it for her too. I was looking forward to being 'overdosed' on her golden nectar as she had threatened, but didn't get a drop, and when I brought my rubber bondage suit to her house on her instruction one day she changed her mind later.
Being a slave can be tough. Goddess is a fantastic person and I wouldn't want to change my situation. I love being with her and doing everything I can to follow her instructions to the letter. But she is very demanding and I know that any slight deviation from what she expects will be punished. Sadly, the punishment doesn't take the form of a whipping, but a telling off. I am usually back to square one again and have to try and rebuild her belief in my abilities as a faithful slave.
This week she suggested that she might be interested in hiring a dungeon locally and I phoned the lady who runs it to get information for her. The dungeon has a bondage bed, whipping bench etc and sounds great, and I am hoping that Goddess will want to take it forward. Whatever happens I am devoted to her. Her cousin visited her at the weekend and she recognised my devotion, as Goddess - and her cousin - sent electric shocks through my balls via the remote control dog training collar. Now I have to convince Goddess that I'm not a complete waste of time. I'm not doing very well at the moment, but I will keep trying. Happy days!