Goddess has still not forgiven me for my behaviour when I came back from holiday but at least I have seen her a couple of times and done quite a few jobs and chores for her, which she has appreciated I think, and she still wants me as her slave, which is all I really want in life. I am getting close to finalising my move to live near her so that I can serve her on daily basis, or 24/7 if that is what she wants. Everything is in her hands and I can only hope that I do well enough for her to want to progress towards that.
She gave me some encouragement recently when she told me that one day, after I move in to my new house, she will demand that I dress as a maid and cook and serve her and a female friend. Later she asked me to write a story imagining the day. I certainly fantasised about all the things that I would really like Goddess to do to me, making sure that her wishes and demands were at the centre of everything, and I was flattered, and encouraged, when she said she loved it, and it gave me some hope for the future. If she wants, I will put it on the blog. All I really want is to be owned by her, humiliated by her, whipped, put into rubber bondage and become her plaything and cunt/slave full time. Maybe in time, if I do my best, this will happen on a daily basis.
At long last my metal chastity device has arrived. I originally ordered a closed cap version but the company that was supposed to supply it failed to do so (I won't name them but they are quite well known and did not come up to scratch), so in the end I ordered a Houdini from another company. I am not wearing it yet as Goddess has not instructed me to do so, but it looks like it will live up to its name, as being completely escape proof. I am now wearing a ring with the word SLAVE inscribed on it, and Goddess has ordered me to get one for her with the word GODDESS on it, which should arrive soon.
Overall, life as a cunt/slave to my Goddess continues to be a challenge, but I will do my best to obey her, remember not to speak or act before thinking and always bear her needs and sensitivities in mind. And if I succeed I know we will both be very happy.
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