Counting the days

I am now counting the days until I give up work and will be free to serve Goddess full time, if she wants it. I'm taking a holiday in the US but when I get back I will be focusing all my efforts on moving closer to Goddess. My dream is that she will allow me to be her live in slave. But at the moment she doesn't seem keen, so I will look for a place near where she lives. She is still mad at me because about six months ago I said I wanted to live near her but not with her. I deeply regret saying that now. I said a lot of things back then that I regret. My whole approach has changed so much since then. At the beginning of the year, after our holiday in the Caribbean, I suddenly realised for the first time that in order to serve Goddess to her satisfaction I had to accept that I am just a cunt and that I must obey her at all times.
I still speak out of turn sometimes (Rule 10 - think before you speak) - but I think I have improved a lot. I am happy now just to accept whatever Goddess says without argument or comment, because I realise that she is right. I can sit quietly without the need to make conversation if it's clear that this is what she wants, and I try to make sure my chores are done without her having to tell me. It can still be challenging being a slave but I know that this is what I want, so will do whatever it takes. I know it will be worthwhile in the end.