No more thinking for myself

Goddess is unhappy with me because I still think for myself on occasions. At the weekend I put on my 'Orange for Goddess' housecoat without asking permission first. And tonight, while I was doing marketing emails for her business, I sent one to a business that she didn't have on her list. I was only trying to help, but the answer of course is that I must stop thinking for her and just do what I am told, without argument. I am desperate for her to say that I can be her live-in slave, but each time I make a mistake I go back one space, like a game of Ludo. I leave work in two days time and (flights allowing) hope to go to the US on holiday - with Goddess's blessing. When I get back I will be her property and I will move to her area.
My dream is that she will let me be her live-in slave. I know it will not be easy serving her 24/7 but I am determined, and the reward, hopefully, is that she will let me sleep at the foot at her bed, drink her pee, be whipped regularly, serve her orally, be humiliated and degraded and locked up for the night in my rubber bondage suit. It may be just a fantasy, but I hope that I have proved my devotion and showed her that I am truly sorry for the comments I made last year which she still berates me for. I know this is my one and only chance to achieve slavery with the most fantastic and beautiful black Goddess that I could ever meet and I just hope that it works out. It won't be for lack of trying on my part.
Meanwhile I am still trying to sell most of the fetish gear that I have, while keeping the bits that Goddess is interested in. When I move, I want to take as little stuff as possible, so I hope the would-be buyer makes a decent offer.